The scariest time of our lives.

Yesterday began the scariest moments of our lives started yesterday. While getting dressed to spend the day with my mom, my water broke. I, of course didn't know it was my water, in fact I was thinking that I peed myself while brushing my teeth. I decided to sit down to figure out if that's what happened and could find no information on the internet, so I stood up in order to finish getting dressed. That's when the flood gates opened. Water came gushing out of me and I knew something was wrong. I rushed to the bathroom where I sat on the toilet. After the water was done, I got up to clean up and change again when more flooded out of me. By this time I was FREAKING OUT. I told David that we needed to go to the hospital. I called my doctor's office and was told to go to the emergency room, I called my mom and told her to meet us there and we left. We live 30 miles from the hospital and the drive was nervewracking. We got there and my mom had beat us there, we checked in and I was immediately put into a wheelchair. By this time, I was still leaking but not gushing and since being pregnant I don't keep pads around, I was using paper towels (my mom did ask me this morning why I didn't grab towels and all I can say is I didn't think about it.) I was brought back to a room where the first thing done was a doppler was used to find the baby. We had a heartbeat of 150! So we knew the baby was still doing well so far. We still were unsure of what was leaking from me and the ER staff stated that they didn't have the litmus paper to determine if it was amniotic fluid so a pelvic exam was done. That's always fun. During this time, we are all just waiting but I told my mom to go home because I was only allowed to have one person with me and I didn't want her worrying in the waiting room for hours. The pelvic exam revealed that my cervix is still closed but nothing else was out of the ordinary. Since there was still no determination of what was coming out of me, an ultrasound was done. I tell you that was the longest hour and a half of my life. It took 30 minutes just to get to the ultrasound room and an hour for the ultrasound. I can only remember just how much I cried in that hour because the ultrasound pictures didn't look like anything I had seen before at my doctor's office. I know that now it's because the amniotic fluid is the dark stuff we usually see in the background, and because I have so little of it, there wasn't that dark outline. I thought I saw a heartbeat during one of the times I looked at the screen but couldn't be sure. The whole time was depressing, especially when it took 3 techs to get the pictures needed, one of them being very visibly pregnant. Just a side note, when a woman might be in the process of losing their baby, maybe sending the pregnant woman in to do the ultrasound isn't the best choice. After the ultrasound was the wait, because the techs couldn't tell us anything. When we were returned to the ER, we waited for the doctor to come and tell us the results. We got a PA who came to tell us that yes, my water did break and that I was at high risk for losing the baby. She spoke with my doctor who stated that I needed to be on strict bedrest. I'm only allowed to be up to go to the bathroom. I will do what I can to get through this. I saw my doctor today and he stated that we are at a very high risk and I will be seeing a high risk doctor. I will also be seeing my doctor once a week until this is resolved. We do have a chance however, we saw the baby today and there was a heartbeat still! My doctor has stated that if I stay on bedrest, and if my placenta seals over, and there is no more leaking (which we haven't since yesterday at the ER) then the baby and I can replenish fluid. I'm not sure how long I will be on bedrest but hopefully those great things will happen.